letting go

so two days later, it has become clear to me that i was completely correct the other day and I was definitely going through an energetic purging and healing, all through my relationship with my housemate and with the situation i've found myself in lately. It's funny that you can have so much happen for you and to you without the other person even being aware of any of it...

I ended up finding a passage in "Oneness" that corroborated this phenomenon. It told of experiences we have that may seem like total overreactions or completely misguided in terms of who is involved in the issue. In other words, why would this person cause me to feel this way, and this intensely? B/c that is precisely why we are all here now and what we need to do for each other.

B/c of the past few days, I have discovered and healed this super wound I was carrying around with me, and now I'm able to be in an intimate relationship free from all that baggage and expectation. I even had an amazing evening with another housemate where true connections and understanding were present, all b/c of the openness I feel due to my earlier clearing and processing. I had to have the space to let all of that flow through, and not impede the energetic flow with anything else (and other people always help create the "anything else").

I get the best information when just lying on my bed/foam pad, when I really dig in and let go of what I think my experience "should" be. It's my sacred space and I am immensely and eternally grateful for it :)