Trusting the Universe

I was just telling Joanna yesterday that I knew something was going to work out for my housing situation, and that it would be perfect for the place I'm in (in terms of life journey), and it would work itself out in time and even though I have ten days to figure it out, I am not stressing nor getting antsy or crazy with wondering when and how it will work out. I just knew it would. It always has in the past, and it always will. Stressing just causes unnecessary pain and strife, so this time I made a conscious decision to let it go and surrender and watch the universe unveil the delightful treasures as the time comes for me to accept them into the present moment.

And last night, after an unsuccessful roommate interview, I received an email that gave me the good happy vibes all over, and the knowing that it is definitely all good and my opportunity was handed to me on a silver platter, with a smile and a "good on ya" from the universe. I did good. I patiently waited and was rewarded in turn. And perhaps I was a good example for Joanna, as I told her something would work out and now it is working out just as I knew it would.

I haven't yet spoken to the people in the house yet, but I know in my heart that it is the perfect place for me to be. One housemate emailed me yesterday and then today another one decided to email me and let me know that she is definitely in line with having me live there, just from reading my posting on craigslist. It just feels so right! She is a super yogini and I am definitely looking to be surrounded by similar high vibrational energy, and they even run a superfood business through their co-op. It's in the perfect part of town, right near Yoga Kula and literally just on the next block over from where I used to live! They could even share backyards... crazy how things work out when you let them.

I just remembered Carol telling me that "the community you are looking for is in Berkeley, and the job is in Alameda." And now I found the children's program in Alameda and this communal house in Berkeley... awesome :)

And I just made a new friend last night! We got along right away and she even likes yoga, so she can be a yoga buddy! She will probably be in the city, but I can visit her and we can talk Astrology b/c she's super into it like I am. She's a believer. She even blogs and walks a lot, like me. It's funny b/c we were both interviewing for the same place in a house, and neither of us really wanted to live there. She wants to live in the city and I want to live with yoga people. Funny how that happens. I knew beforehand that I wouldn't want to live at the house but I also knew there was some reason for me to go anyway, and my new friend was the answer!

So today I'm definitely feeling really good. I bought some tea for myself (I've been out of tea for a week) and I was excited to make it this morning, plus my housemates all left and retreated to their rooms when I woke up, thus freeing up some breathing room... Having the kitchen to myself is such a rarity these days, I fully appreciate it when I can rinse something in the sink without anyone hovering over me and stealing the water from me occasionally. Can't they wait until I've rinsed off a dish before they have to rinse their fruit? Seriously, people, give me some freakin space! And all the pots are always dirty, I am so glad I am leaving that house in less than ten days, or else we would have to seriously talk about how we all operate in the kitchen. But as it is, I am leaving, so I can just do my thing and make the best of it and not delve into serious personality clashes.

I just think it's amusing now when I can literally feel the judgement coming from people, and knowing that they have some serious sh*t to work on. It has nothing to do with me and I feel so strong in living my life exactly how I want and know it is meant to be lived, and not caring what other people think or how they react to my life. I'm so above and beyond all that crap, it's so freeing. I feel like I can fly! My housemate totally judges everything all the time, and I know she does it to herself, too, so I have compassion for her process and don't take it personally. It irritates me but doesn't hurt me, if that makes sense. I just don't want to be around it and would never live with her again. I'm so not looking for anyone to constantly scrutinize what I'm doing, where I'm going, what I'm eating/drinking, and to actively and obviously judge it and not even try to hide her reaction (which is usually negative and critical). My parents don't even do that! Thank God! If she does that to me, what does she do to herself, or to her partner? Man oh man... it must be hard to be her.

My life just keeps getting better and better, as I keep repeating in these posts. It's true though, and I'm so happy about it. I'm not always sunshine and rainbows, b/c the ungroundedness of my life at the moment can be really tough emotionally, and I keep an even keel when it comes to maintaining my sanity and connection to Source. I take off when I need to escape the house, I close my door when I need alone time, I'll go to the woods when I need Nature to help myself clear, I'll go on walks when I need to move the energy, I'll call friends when I need to hear their voice and to know they are there, and I'll go buy food when I need to eat. I'm taking care of myself in a way I've never done before and it feels so amazing, I'm so in love with my life.

I told Laura that my life is like a treasure hunt, I just keep moving forward and looking out for clues, and gems keep popping up in the form of friends, lessons, experiences, cafes, a ha! moments, music, etc... I just keep myself open, keep loving, keep staying connected, and it all works out! It all works out. It really does. I have total faith and trust and things just keep falling into place, one by one. I love it. Lovelovelove it. Thank you god, thank you universe, thank you friends and family, thank you everything and everyone! And thanks to me for making this happen, and allowing it to unfold. I'm living it! Go me!