Into the light

Okay so I just did a little venting session and deleted all that I just wrote... Whew, feel a bit better now. I was struggling on Sunday and Monday for a number of reasons, but last night it all worked itself out! I spent the day doing my thing, taking care of myself, and then just ignored my housemates rather than getting pulled into Joanna's need for family time, and I ended up feeling amazing! Melissa will feel so much more welcome and comfortable now than if she arrived earlier. A lot of tension was building up in me and last night it just dissipated when I started really being still and not judging myself and being fully supportive and smart about my situation and my life. It's really all good. All good. It's hard sometimes and we just need to learn to deal with it and make it work without killing other people or taking it out on the world. If you need to hide away, hide away. If you need to go on a drive, go on a drive. Do whatever you need to do and do not feel bad about it. B/c once you feel better, the whole world smiles back at you and thanks you for being strong and mature enough to deal with it on your own.

Go team!